Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Paranoid much?

OK. I will make it through the rest of the day without murdering anyone. There, now that I've said THAT, I'll tell y'all about my day!

Went down to the Gulf Coast for our staff council meeting today. I rode in the van because I had NO CLUE how to get to the campus. It was a fun ride down there. I like everyone that rode the van. We had a nice meeting, lost three passengers (to other rides back home), and decided to eat at Logan's. We had a terrific waitress, good food, and it was a great time of socializing. My drugs must have helped a bit already because I actually opened my mouth and spoke over lunch. Normally in groups like that I sit quiet and just listen. But I really did join in on the conversations and had fun. I also had their peanut butter fudge thing as dessert. I had decided I wasn't going to order one (being good!) then the waitress started sitting them in front of everyone. I wasn't going to insult whoever decided to get them for the entire table (9 of us!) It was a fun ride home too.

I missed my dance class tonight because of homework. I have a C program due tomorrow and I couldn't figure out how I had messed it up. By the time I had it fixed the class had already started. But at least I wrote the program. It has no error checking in it, but I couldn't figure out how to put that in and didn't feel like worrying about it. I don't think Matthew is worried about that at this point because we have not discussed anything like that.

I don't know how well the drugs are really working because I seriously considering killing my husband earlier this evening. WHY? you ask... Because he mentioned having talked to some girl last night that I haven't had the opportunity to meet yet. And probably won't for a while because the next time she will be in town is when I will be out of town. And the last time she was here we weren't invited to the gathering, and the other time was HubCon and we couldn't afford for both Josh and I to go. My good friend is kinda interested in her, so I REALLY want to meet her. No idea why it has me so pissed that Josh mentioned talking to her last night.

And, then there is the why do I think I have gained weight this week. I'm paranoid. I just am. I wasn't as good this week as last, but that's ok. I think last week was too good to be true. I'm psycho, if y'all havent' figured that out yet! Hopefully I will get good news in the morning, but I'm expecting BAD news. At least this way I will either be prepared or happily surprised.

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful evening. I think I'm going to see if I can figure out a way to calm myself down for bed. :) I MIGHT try to catch up with all the blogs tomorrow afternoon. We get off work at noon for a ball game and I might use the afternoon for computer time instead of studying. Good idea, right?


the veggie paparazzo said...

When I was having anxiety problems, I cut anything that caused unnecessary tension or anxiety out of my life. No scary books, no scary or tense movies, no scary or tense tv shows, no watching the news, etc. It definitely helped me feel more normal. Other than that, all I can say is . . . I'm past it now, and you will get there too. (I am still careful about overloading myself with scary things, though.)


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