Feeling Good About Myself...

I'm currently 210 lbs, yes that's more than at the beginning of January. But I'm actually feeling ok about this. Sure, it's not a great thing thing, but there is a positive in all this.

I can actually fit in some size 18 pants. Sure, some are still 20s...but, my MIL bought a pair of 18s for me, and the 20s I ordered online are TOO BIG! I'm going to try and hit the mall and see if I can exchange them at the local Lane Bryant instead of sending them in. So, even if I am up for the year, apparently I'm a little tinier.

For me, it's not all about the number on the scale. My journey is about me feeling good about myself. I currently don't, to be honest. I feel kinda icky most of the time. But trying on a pair of pants and finding out they are WAY too big is a major boost to my self-esteem. Using the number on the scale is just the easiest and quickest way to track my progress on a regular basis.

Weight Watchers appears to be releasing the material on their new program this week. So, I'm excited to say that I will be officially starting over on all my tracking this Wednesday. I've been trying to make smart decisions lately, but not pushing myself on tracking and such. I'm going to use a wall calendar to track things like taking my pills (can't forget the Prozac and birth control!), taking vitamins, exercising, etc. And, of course, changing the contacts. I could track that stuff here or at SparkPeople, but it doesn't seem to really work as a daily basis thing for me. At least with the wall calendar I will see it on my way to bed and hoping go "OH! I forgot X! Have to do that before I can go to bed!" I'm sure this won't be perfect, but it's a good start. I'm going to by some cute stickers to use and have a legend for what the stickers mean. Of course, I probably won't start the sticker thing until January. I got an Avon calendar today, but I think I might buy some cute motivating calendar to hang up.

Well, I hope that everyone had a good weekend (at least, the people for whom I haven't seen blog entries about it!) and everyone have a great week! I have my last final (economics!) tomorrow evening, so we know where some of my evening SHOULD be spent!